Bittersweet

My life is mostly bittersweet

It comes and goes with every deed

Are we to blame

Or just in need

When the last is gone

We plant our seed

One Planet

Are we going to hell

Are we going to heaven

We have a blast

And count to seven

This is our life

This is salvation

We are one planet

But out of frustration

We nearly extinct

We risk it all

Is the pleasure

Worth the fall

Are we going to hell

Are we going to heaven

We have to be sane

And count to seven

Troubled days

Healing rain

We stand in line not to go insane

As the corridors open

Windows are broken

And now who’s to blame

 

I had a friend

He was gone when the first bombs fell

Are we going to hell

It‘s all the same

 

We’re here alone

No light shines through the windows

I call it redemption

But out of temptation

I try to restrain

 

There is a new morning

I hear some talking

Shots in the distance

Our last resistance

It’s all the same

Freedom within

Freedom within

Freedom without

Mutual sin

Can we live with the doubt

A morning of blessings

Some old rotting trees

We could have been wiser

We seem still so blind

A morning of blessings

We need to be kind

Freedom within

Freedom without

We need to reflect

And not live with the doubt

So many chances

 My whole dreams are just a mile away

And I know patience is my way to joy

I could stay and wait

Forever and ever more

Or just stand for what

I love the most

I could dream a million dreams

I could wake and sing or so it seems

 

My life was made of so many chances

So many chances

My self defense is

My self defenses

They hold me

From suceeding

 

I can break these walls

That hold me down

That hold my crown

 

My life was made of so many chances

So many chances

My self defense is

My self defenses

They hold me

From suceeding

 

 

Does anybody know why life is that cruel

Is there any rule

 

I will suceed

I make my way

All my stupid thoughts

Have gone astray

 

My life was made of so many chances

So many chances

My self defense is

My self defenses

They don’t hold me

From suceeding

 

I will make it

I will make it

My life was built of

So many chances

My self defenses

They protect me

Grace

Who has got the answer

To an unspoken word

Who can heal cancer

Without that much hurt

Who knows all the reasons

Of mortality

Who can stand your treasons

They are not for free

Who will fall apart

Who will break your heart

If I could just beg your pardon

There are some things we can't face

Oh and get this thing starting

You still have your grace

Who has got the courage

To fight a battle lost

I need your reinsurance

Who will pay the cost

Who has got the answer

To an unspoken word

Who can heal cancer

Without that much hurt

Tree of life

I woke up early in the morning

Like so often in these days

I thought it was a dream

That kept my mind at peace

But I am here at home

And everything’s alright

You are at my side

I never stopped believing

I’m so grateful in these days

Have we been not in Bearland

I would hide from your face

I would run and never tire

Cause there is too much at stake

Will you be my dear companion

I can see the answer in your eyes

I stay with you, I pay the price

Though I am glad to pay it everyday 

And again a million times

I do not tire looking at your face

I do not tire giving all of me for you

Until there is nothing left 

But the love we share

Because you make me feel home

Because you are my home

The best of me

The tree of life

Where I arrive

Here with me

There are so many oceans

So many seas

So much at stake

Here and there a lake

Now and there a break

What matters is 

You’re here with me

I don’t remember

Nor am I a fool

If I loved you tender

Should we go back to school

Is there any rule

There is no surrender

No hypocrisy

I love you tender

And you’re here with me

At the gate

Fiery nights

Along the bay

Something strange

And out of sight

Give me your time

One golden coin

I gladly would

Another side

Beauty within

So bitter cold

I hear no sound

Miles away

The dust settles

A lonely swan

Brick by brick

A miracle

Of all the rivers

Only one can tell

Too much noise

Can break the silence

Can end in violence

Stumble forward in hesitation

Be much more than inspiration

Echoes never heard

That make walls tremble

If only

The fires burning

Flames hiding

The smoke ascends

Up to where the light is

A puzzle of so many pieces

Where belief is

War

I'm cab driver since half a year. The stories you hear they change you and your worldview piece by piece. It's not about what you hear on the news but what you hear from people who have been at places for real and their simple part of a certain story. Usually you hear this story only for some minutes without any proof if it's wrong or right and who else was involved and what's their part of it. There's one story that came to my mind first when I started to write.

The guy I drove wanted to go to a bar. At one point he told me that he had been a soldier in the Afghan War back when the Soviets occupied the country and in some other warfare zones. He told me he saw cruelty people do to each other that's hard to imagine when you don't witness yourself. He told about children and women being slaughtered without any mercy and the helplessness faced with demons that won't make you any different from this. He was left with posttraumatic stress disorder - how we like to call it - or simply the fact that all these horrible pictures still wander around in his mind and torture him. I don't know if he had to kill people too or just witnessed other people being killed. And I honestly don't know if it's worse to kill somebody who would else kill others and be left on the same level or to see it happening wishing to intervene.

In the end people are sometimes left with choices where all options are terrible to take and put damage to others and oneself. And what's left is trying to live with it.

Same planet

You're from the same planet

The planet I left long ago

Where words aren't needed

Where we just sense the beauty of the world

And all l need l can see reflecting in your eyes

And your words guide me through this forlorn world

I don't regret and l focus on the horizon

Where you are - somewhere in different lands

The spark that enlightens me

The wisdom and direction I need

I know I've found what l was searching for

And in your arms l feel finally free

On my own

 I never felt so lost

It just comes at too high a cost

Faced my demons once again

I do see them linger somewhere

Too afraid to reappear

Did you hear?

There’s a storm I can’t escape

Else I would be lost forever

You once told me that I’d made it

And I know that this is true

What about you?

Have you lost your sense of humor?

Is this really what you want?

There’s a chance you might be trapped

In the wheels of your own belief

There’s nothing I’d be without you

There was nothing we could do

Sometimes life leaves you no choice

But to do what you have to do

Guess I found my way somehow

This time I need to make it work

Need to leave the shadows

That still tell me that I won’t

I thought I never dared

To walk this road just on my own

There are thousand kingdoms waiting

And they seem to make me blind

There’s a chance I might be losing

All I ever thought was kind

There’s a chance that I won’t stand it

There’s a chance I’d become a stranger to myself

Though there’s a chance I’d escape this prison

That makes me numb and desperate

And that’s the reason why I try

Guess I found my way somehow

This time I need to make it work

Need to leave the shadows

That still tell me that I won’t

I thought I never dared

To walk this road just on my own

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Another shade of blue

Distance can be scary
Losing means pain
Some have lost the balance
Some have gone insane

In the light of every secret
There's a mourning breaking through
The truth can be quite heavy
Another shade of blue

Most sincere sensation

There's not an answer but many questions
Some mysteries hidden in distant fractions
Some simple sound, some empty laughter
The moon might tell what we are after
Our strangest fears, our brightest failures
In time everything might betray us
But though there's light in darkest alleys
If we dare to rise above
If we dare to simply love
Without any obligation
Just our most sincere sensation